Apparently I’m on AB honor roll… This is not good enough for me. My mom looks at me like I’m crazy when I tell her things like this, and I probably am, but I hate it!!! They always say try your best, and every time I get a grade lower than I thought it would be I get a little sad… Well, not just grades. Everything in life. I don’t like to mess up. It drives me insane. How can I make a 54 on something I spent hours studying for!? Am I stupid?! Should I just take regular classes again?! Chris laughs at me when I tell him that I’m upset about a C, but to the that’s the equivalent of failing. And I’ve made F’s before. I was so upset I didn’t want to tell anyone, but I told my mom…. I expected her to be disappointed, and to yell at me, and look at me with the most exasperated look on her face…. I hate that look of What the hell is wrong with you?!?!? It makes me so depressed, but anyway she didn’t care. I guess there’s just something wrong with me…. Oh, and I’m reading that book Matched. I’ll let you know whether it’s worth reading or not when I finish… I love it, so far.
~DarkDarcey~
Savior by Rise Against :D & Three Days Grace… Tears of joy :D
~DarkDarcey~ :))))))) (I’m really happy right now.)
Soooo. Had a fun time last week… Thursday was field day. WE all got to go outside and hang out… No class!!!! Yay!!!!! :) My brain gets tired when you try to shove information down my throat all day long. So, I had fun. My school raised enough money to pay for some rides. We had something called the whirly-gig or something like that. You had to pump a handle, which caused you to spin around. Then there was something my friends and I called the dryer. This thing was round… Like one of those hampster wheels. There was a bar that went through the middle so you’d have something to hold onto, and seat-belts. Some guys spun it around with you in there… I did’nt scream like most people…. Although I was gonna…. Once it started spinning all I could think about was the fact that my hands were getting kinda sweaty and that would make it hard to hold onto the bar. I was going to get my face painted, but I did’nt becouse it might make me break-out…. I wish I had a picture of some of the things my art teacher did, though. She was really good at it. I also had got a farmers-tan… My arms are pink lol :) Then I was out Friday…. You know, because of all the tornadoes last year. Had to go to my dads after that. Slept on an air mattress. They’re not as uncomfortable as people say, though… Only when your little sister is hogging the blanket and pushing you to the edge :) The next day I got up and made us some cereal. Hung out and watched TV until my baby brother woke up. Then my step-mom fixed his breakfast and went back to bed…. So my Saturday morning was spent chasing the little ones around. Everyone came in the living room around noon-time…. Did I ever tell you How small their house is? It has 2 bed-rooms, 1 bath-room, and the living room kinda fades into the kitchen which is’nt even big enough to fit a table in…. We eat on the island ( it’s part of the counter). Anyway, they always try to surprise us with special things…. Which is usually going swimming or visiting relatives I don’t like or barely know. They always wait until just before we have to leave to tell me, and even then don’t tell me what we’re going to do. I am a teenage girl. If I have to wear a bathing-suit, there are things I need to know about. Sometimes I need to know what we’re doing because my mom wants to know, or it’s interfering with my plans. I mean, I know suprises are fun, but there are just some things you have to tell me. You can’t just be the normal smart-ass dad you want to be and say, “You don’t need to know you’re just a kid.” Had fun swimming after I told them that they have to tell me these things and shaved. My older step-cousin, Hue or Que or whatever his name is, had a fun time trying to piss me off. He told me how womens rights was just a joke and no big deal… He was just kidding, by the way, so don’t flip shit. He told my 1 year old (now almost 2!!!) brother how life was going to be Hell when he grew up. We went to the park, and visited my step-grandparents… And yeah, I did feel akward. Chris was ignoring me for awhile and I started to get worried and pissed. He appologized, though. His mom took his phone :) Well, I just kicked the shit out of my dog for jumping all over me…. I think my elbow is sprained and I might be coming down with a cold… And I’m covered in sun-burn. I know I’m pitiful. Had fun in church. got chased all over the place while playing capture the flag. Some guys ganged up on me. So, of course, I tried to protect myself using my claw-like figer nails. I think I scratched some guy in the face.. Sorry person I did’nt mean it I got scared!!! Some 9 year-old hugged…. I was really scared :)<3Christifer<3
Blissfully yours,
~DarkDarcey~ :)
My Nana (I call her Nancy behind her back) has decided that I am clay that she was sent here to mold. First, she decides to take me to a play… Wicked… Not sure if I told you that I went to see that. She had a reason for this. It was not so that I could have the experience of seeing a play. No, it was a test. To see if I would dress appropriately. Then, she decides I need a charm bracelet for my birthday. OK, this is’nt such a bad thing. I just don’t like that she treats me like I’m her kid…. I just don’t like physiatrists. I might also be jealous of the fact that she has gotten to travel all over the world along with my step-dad, his brothers, and their dad. I hardly know her I just met her (or only remember meeting her) last year or the year before. Anyway, Tom (step-grandpa) and my Grandma Kay are mad at my mom and step-dad. My Grandma Kay is angry because my mom asked her not to come to my great-grandmothers funeral/viewing drunk…. Like she did at my great-grandfathers in February. Nancy lives with Tom and Grandma Kay…. Tom and my step-dad are brothers, Nancy is their mom… My step-dad’s the oldest… Messed up, I know. So now there is some big fight going on and Nancy comes over to take me to get a charm bracelet. She wants to go to the Summit. My mother hates it there. So my step-dad does’nt tell her we’re going there until we’re driving away. Then Nancy continues to mention things about grandmother. You can tell my mom is pissed. Did I mention that Kay’s a drunk that pops pills? Prescription pills that the doctor gives her because of her high blood pressure. She going to kill herself….. It’s just pissing me off. I feel like shit… All this noise is giving me a head ache. I just don’t understand…. Maybe I will, one day….. #life
Sadly yours,
~DarkDarcey~
I am so bored…. I don’t think I can listen to music anymore. It’s depressing. I can french braid now!!! And french twist and fishtail braid…. This is what happens when I’m bored and have access to the Internet…. My freind is such a bich!!! She keeps on comminting about how my highlights make it look like I have gray hair. And I swear to god if someone calls me stupid one more time I will go off…. My other freind told me to stop reading and talk to her becouse I had’nt said anything smart all day. What the hell!!!??? Are they trying to depress me???!!!! I mean is it really neccesary to do things like that??!!! My self esteem is already low enough… I wish me and chris lived in the same state… Then it would be easier to talk about things like this… He already worries about me enough, though.. I don’t need to give him anything else to worry about… Just afhalkjvncgjklyuweisk;jvbn!!!!! People suck…. Oh, yeah!! My mom makes me get on Facebook so my relatives don’t worry about me. I posted something about how being sick sucks and that I wish I felt better. A lot of people said they hoped I feel better. Exept my grandma. She tol me not to say sucks it sounds wrong. WTF!!!??? She has no say about what I post onmyFacebook page!! At least I don’t cuss like I do normally!!! It just pisses me off that she thinks she can control what I say and do!!! She’s not my mother!!! Noone else had a problem with what I said!!! Like I’ve said before, I can’t wait to get the hell out of here!!! #pissedoff#assholes#life
~DarkDarcey~
